being a big girl.....

As a woman do you ever catch yourself doing something that you KNOW isn't what you are suppose to be doing? Maybe something like manipulating a situation that you KNOW that you should be going to the Lord about it because He can move mountains for goodness sake, but instead, for some reason us women find it harder to go to prayer about something than take care of the situation with our controlling or manipulative ways on our own. There are 'some things' that I just see it no other way, I'm RIGHT and that is just the way it is and when someone else doesn't see it my way it's just frustrating....is this just me? These are times I think I want to have a serious talk with Eve when I get to heaven. (smile)

I'm a bit in this spot right now. A situation where we all make a decision one way or another yet I see it being a decision that only should go ONE WAY, THE RIGHT WAY, MY WAY!! Inside I feel like this little girl kicking and screaming to try and get my way.On the outside, I am this grown woman who talks to someone about the same decision I 'get' to make and to me it is a no brainer yet I have to talk inside of my head and bite my tongue and say, "Lord it's your way!" Sometimes I find myself even trying to convince the Lord who IS God, all knowing, sovereign and THE ONE in control!

So, as I go about this, it is a CHOICE I am making to keep my mouth in check, my heart in check, and PRAY that the Lord's will will be done on earth as it is in heaven and be happy with a good attitude no matter what the outcome! Isn't that being a big girl of me? (smile again)